Missing.. and living in memories

a clip done by Ahmand Syazwan aka Manjong now in Amberg Weiden. Though looking tough on the outside, all of us have a soft side. We really miss those Gmi moments. Really great ones. This clip says it all. look how innocent we look like 2-3 years back. all this pictures have their own significance and story behind them. yes, i miss those moments too.. Afiq tido tak leh blah. Nasib xde gamba aku tido. hanya d memori jer.

sedih sey..

Its the 24th of September

*silly monkey*

Today is a great day for someone that i salute the most in my life. yes, ive gone through a lot with her beside me and today is her 20th birthday! I really want to wish Amanda Sura Nanta the greatest on this day. C'mon b.. take a break for a while and enjoy your special day. Well none of us could forget this day about4 years ago. my, how time has passed. ok some thing happened. not to manda but to me. so i wont tell it here. shh..

Shes one really great girl with all the faith in the world to believe in Christ. A once little girl which i knew in kindergarden with gigi rongak. we were best buddies because both were rongak. haha. and she started her journey in life with many rocky roads but now, shes still standing with the grace of God. shes always behind my big behind always giving me the support and prayers i need and i really want to thank god for this great girl.

*my birthday 2006*

heres to you sister! Happy 20th Birthday!

Muenchen trip

2 days back, we had a trip to.. MUENCHEN! yeap. an amazing one. living in Bavaria, Muenchen is something like kuala Lumpur. the main City of Bavaria (I think). so this is my story to you about Muenchen. it wa drizzling that morning but we insisted to go. our reason was : It rains heavier in Malaysia. eerrmm.. i myself dont know what kind of reason that is. well, it was real cold for me. we took the train about 45 mins from landshut. This 2 weeks muenchen holds a special event. Its the Oktober Fest. ill write more about it later. so because of this event, i saw a lot of bavarians clad in their tradional costume. which was so cool. they even wore it to work. i was in the bank cashing out my cheque and i saw lots of them in their costume. they even sold it commercially and some foreigneers dressed-up too. so my thought was, if it were to be this way in Sarawak, things would look really obscene. The thought of people goin to work in "cawat" aint so cool.

*Government Building*

*raining*

when we got to muenchen, we visited the Marion Platz. as we got out of the subway station, i was so amazed by the buildings and the structures!! it dated back almost 500 years ago. its government building looked like a museum with statues. if the statues had lives, it would be really spooky. good imagination huh? like what they had for the gargoyles in hunchback of northe dame. the cathedral was so old but it was really huge. i only went through one exit and out the other. but i managed to see the golden alter. we climed the tower to see the whole city. i thought it wont be so high. but it really was. and the best part is that we had to climb the stairs. urghh!! noe im not much of a stamina person so i was already out of breath when we just reache 1/3 of the tower. with much grief, i pushed myself to the top. and of course that was i rush of blood to my face for me. i was sweating despite the really cold raining weather.

*on the way up*

*scene from top*

*i finally made it!*

we planned to go to the museum but we didnt have enough time so guess where we went.. hihi.. the famous bavarian beer and sausage festival. Oktober Fest. it wasnt only about beer and sausages, its a big carnival with rides and games and of course food. man, i was really excited. the place was filled with many people of different race and color. now, thats what i call beer brings the world together. the reunion factor like the tiger beer advertisement where the beer bottle got saperated from the crate. so this was it, the festival.

their rides were so amazing! the moment i stepped on the carnival ground, i knew i had to ride this ride. i was so excited as usual. ill get to the extreme and that was what i rode. this ride which im not sure what its name is, i really huge and could kill the shit out of you. it was like seeing the city from the top but better. so i got to see the whole city of Muenchen and more as i was upside down with my feet in the air. i was like stepping of muenchen. haha. but hell yeah it was SO great! you could even feel like your blood is gonna rush out your nose and eye sockets. "sorry mummy, i had to do it. i know you wont let me if youre here" theres just something about me and those machanical rides that sometimes my mum really wish i could throw away.

*still on ground*

*watch the best scene of Muenchen by air*

to the rest of the festival, it means beer. the place is crowded with beer drinking people, with a band playing and people cheering and dancing on tables. 1 liter of beer costs 8 euro, withe a wide range of german beer to choose from. still so much cheaper than back home. i wanted to sit and drink but the place was so packed that they only had reservation tables left. n of course id look odd drinking alone in such a fest. so to all my alcoholics this is the festival for you! next time ill make gawai as such. haha. without much luck, i did not have a beer. so i went around and got myself a sausage burger which taste so good and a candy apple.

*Tradional Band*

*drinking time*

*Bavarian Beer Festival*

we left the fest at aroud 5 and there was more people coming to fill the place. we went back to marion platz to have our dinner. as usual, turkish kebab. hehe. this maybe my first time there but well, im sure in 3 or 4 months time, i wont wanna go there again. hehe

Kehidupan Perantau

its saturday afternoon and i havnt done anything much. i made myself lunch though. egg sandwich. i planned to do laundry but i dont haf 3 pieces of 5ocents. so there goes my laundry for the week. im scared to go down to the basement to do my laundry alone anyway. so since the others are still snoring away, im sitting in front of my laptop chatting with my loved ones.

since i have nothing much to do, so ill tell about this place here. its much differnt than back home. it makes me miss home much. and my mum n sister. i cried reading changis blog just now. so silly girl. badan jak besa, ati kedak taufu fah. hahha. well, its not wrong to have a soft side. just to know the right time to show it.

culturally, its totally the opposite in this land. most of us got a shock the first time we landed in the Frankfurt airport. the toilet is equipped with a condom vending machine. usually back home it will be the sanitary pad machine but here its different. Asian culture is not so open about sex and stuff but well, welcome to Europe. its tag line was "makes enjoyment better" or something like that. wad the?? there is even an erotic party advertised publicly. VERY eye-catching. it also comes with porn stars. err.. OK.. God please guard my heart!

talking about Germany, cars will surely come in mind. yeap. they have whatever series of BMW and Mercedes here. its like looking at Proton back home. very common. the only Japanese car i see often is the Toyota Yaris. Besides that, the list is topped by Opel, Porsche and VW. Call this place high-tech huh. very. people here are left side drivers so everything is on the opposite side. even the road is terbalik. so i have to really watch out while crossing. pening aku. being a 'maju' land its brands are famous worldwide. but here its cheap. so i get to use Schwarzkopf shampoo which only hair professionals use back home. hehe. siap can cuci jamban.

everything is so precise here. the timetable for the bus says 1:08pm. and exactly it comes at the exact time. well Malaysian time is only 5 minutes or consequent. 1:08 means 1:10pm. but here, every minute and second counts. the professor enters class 2 minutes earlier and exactly at 8:30am, the class immediately starts. its like whoa..

people here are very friendly. its not normal back home to greet everyone you meet but here, they greet everyone that walks past them. odd eyh? when we go down to town, its quite quite unless the sun shines brightly. i feel very funny here when i see cars with loud music and teens going around with techno music. i still have the mindset that its only the 'ah-bengs' that do that. i should always remind myself that techno comes from the west, not east. ministry of sound and so on. ;)

despite being so high tech, people here appreciate visual art and stuff like that. yesterday in town they had something like a street art festival. there's tight-rope, jokers, people walking on stilts, a street band and stuff like that. of course im excited about it because im interested in it. hehe. so i went running from one show to another. then my friends had to follow behind. hehe.

so a new place gives me something new. now, this is my life as a 'perantau'.

Scenes All Around

being new to a place of course means a lot of photo taking. too bad my camera went kaputt by the time i reached the frankfurt airport. but i managed to get some photos from my friend. so here is what we did in landshut..

*hoodie pose in front of the Turkish Kebab shop*

*Altstadt with the view of the Church behind*

*like always, my back scene.. typical shoot*

*Going around*

*Crossing the bridge with ducks*

*bridge photo*

*ALDI Grocery Shopping*

*by the Isar River*

*one for the album cover*

we must look really weird walking all over town in a group. haha. it was fun though.

Servus Landshut

*the St Martins Church*

we have gone through much of Landshut so far. by foot that is. 2 days ago i went with my friends to look for halal food and the mosque. we had a great time. and also got a box of peaches free from the Turkish Muslim fruit seller. we must look pretty pathedic though. hahhaha. malaysian students looking for food. amazingly yesterday and today have been quite hot in the afternoon. we went to town yesterday to open our bank account which did not work out. they had some campaign for the election down in town. and how peaceful it is compared to malaysias political issue. they opened up a stage where a band performed and also a beer truck. yes. drinking with the politician. very bayerisch. maybe if they do that in malaysia ill vote every year.

*Political Campaign Enviroment*

despite the sun shiny day we had in the afternoon, the temperature went really low at night and this morning. a freezingly cold 2degrees is not what i had in mind. but that was what Landshut gave me. Thank God that my heater is now functioning. on the way to class, the cars parked by the roadside had ice on them. and so does the grass. that must have been really cold.

*ices!!*

im learing the culture and language slowly here. they dont speak german baku here. but with a slang which herr angelo calls kelantan slang. na gut, servus, chio!, wieder schau. thats what i hear everyday. im starting to get the flow though. i guss my malay went down the drain. hahhaha. too much kedah-isch malay. ang pi mana? serapih! just hope my bidayuh dont get influenced. well, a new day, something new to learn. life teaches us to make us better i guess..

a whole new start

so im here in germany already. its been 3 days. i think. ive lost count of days. im trying to catch up with german speakers and the cold autumn weather. im still freezing as the temperature drops. i dont know how it would be like in winter though. the leaves are starting to loose their color. it seems like just last week that i told manda to pick autumn leaves for me. and now im surrounded by them. time flies so fast. being here seems impossible to me before. but im reaaly thankful that god gave me this dream that came through.

landshut is 45km north-east of munich bavaria. south means that its colder than the other parts. my batch is the first batch of malaysian students here. so we get the stares when we go around town. theres not a lot of foreigners in this small town. we still manage to get around though with our not so high quality deutsch. but i just pray that things will get better. we have gone through the small city and i still feel like its a dream being here. there is more to come though. another few years to count foward to and that also means lonely festive seasons like gawai and christmas.

im starting to miss malaysia though. especially the food. lunch time here means dinner back home. and im imagining the ramadan bazaar. the thought of it makes me hungry. but i dont seem to get hungry here. i just dont have the mood to eat. i miss my family and friends. every song will remind me of everything back home. just now i was sitting at burger king while watching the video clips on the tv. it made me realise that im alone now. watching chris browns forever video makes me feel sad inside as it reminds me of audrey and my dear sister. now theres no one beside me singing along with me despite my not so melodious voice. i yearn for the day that i would cuddle up with them while talking about life or just go out to have fun and audrey can hook up with guys while i get asian international in the clubs! hahaha.




all the when i grow up stories are now made new with diffrent plans that god made for us. so this is where i start my new beginning.

so much to do, so little time

leaving and saying goodbye is not always the best. thats what i have learned from the past few days. knowing i am going to leave things that mean a lot to me makes it even harder to say goodbye. spending time with my dearest friends always finds its way of making me smile. hearing a dear old familiar voice makes memories sweeter. i'm trying hard to hold back tears by putting a smile on my face. i could just hug and cry but i try not to. i still have a lot to catch up with you guys :(

our flight is rescheduled to this sunday (last minute stuff).. this means less time to spend with loved ones. makes it harder with a sprained ankle. haha.. a lesson learned. do not look at food while waiting for your transport. it does not work.

im sitting while spending time with a dear friend. haha. funny. silly. romantic?? this kind of people really make my world go round. i just hope i can find more of them when i'm over in the west. time is ticking. 5 more days as they counted. i do not want to remind myself but i still have to accept the fact. well, i should start packing. that sounds sad. wish i had more time.. but time waits for no man (or woman).

all things must come to an end

2 years ago, i left my hometown to study in west malaysia. an adventure that i could not imagine. i was blessed with good friends despite their reigion and race, a great church and a solid rock to stand on. being a gapp (german a-level preparation programme) student have been tough for me and also my coursemates. we have shed tears of joy and also hurts. strangers became closer than brothers or sisters and we all lived like a family. after 2 years had passed, this is where i stand today. we haf ended our stressful but interesing journey in the german-malaysian institute kuala lumpur.

it makes me sad that i have to leave those ive bonded with. we all feel the same. all those silly and funny entertaining memories are never going to fade from my life.

flashback : orientation 2006 (none of us will ever forget soaking in the mud carrying our friend on bamboos!!) , a-level exams , testdaf pruefung , stressful classes (and also lecturers) , some stood outside german class for more than a month!! (thank God it wasnt me!) and let us not not forget the highlight of our extraordinary course.. Vorpraktikum. the Producion Technology department ( and the latest industrial electronics ).. we almost had our hands broken off by filing rusted metal pieces by hand! ( great work we did )

our friendship grew strong as time passes. i owe a great thank you to my coursemates who have always been there for me. stood behind me and gave me encouragement when i really needed it. those who stood up for the rights of the girls in the class *winks* and those who made me laugh when im about to cry. thank you also for making me feel at home as west malaysia is so diferent from the east. to the teachers for having trust and believing that i can make it through.

as the saying goes.. time flies when youre having fun. we all must go on our ways. as for me, it will be hochschule landshut for the next 3 or 4 years. i hope im ready for this rocky ride. a new experience is gonna start real SOON!!