Swirly Moodness

Random posts, random emotions. Sometimes my heart is screaming to the world and at most times, it keeps silent in my soul. Now I think it's lost in a sea of emotions, uncertainty and dilusions. If only now or the present was not reality. I feel like I'm stuck in an emotionless hole, not knowing what to do, afraid of doing something.

No, I do not like the idea that kids as young as three years of age thought to not eat because it makes them fat. Now she has gastric. At such a young age. She will grow up with the idealogy not to eat because it will make her fat. Just tell them it's not healty. Full stop. When I was younger, at the age of ten, I hardly weight 15kg. I was often forced to eat, with the rotan waiting at the end of the dining table. Secrets reveled, I stuffed all my food up my uniform pocket to fool adults that I've finished up my lunch. At the end, I was cought, scolded. If I have shoved all those food up my tiny throat, I would throw up. So serba salah. Not a win-win situation.

No, I do not like people judging someone without even thinking twice. Just because a friend judges, does not mean you have to. I am against it even more, if another person is not sensitive to another being likewise religiously or racially or whatever-ly. Most that I have been through before. My heart feels like spitting out my mouth. On the other hand, I think WWJD. What would Jesus do huh? Lord please forgive those who do not know what they are talking about. Most of the time, we cross people in our path that are meant to tear us down and make us feel weak, useless. I guess their lives are'nt as much better is as mine. Be an optimists.

Love is something you can always hold on to. This case, if you know that your love will end one day, how would you feel or react? No one gets married to prepare for a divorce. Some people put themselves in a situation where things are impossible, praying that love will make it possible.

Sometimes I wish I had a world of my own. Where people do not say bad things to me or make me feel like I am dirty as of not holy. Look at me disgustedly. Where my imperfections and flaws are accepted. Where my love would always be there, with security that it would not end.

I talk to my Lord as a sinner, dirty and unholy. He still loves me. But humans? How much right do they have to judge another being? A wise man talks after much thought. The others, the opposite.

Save Earth

I've officially done with my six weeks Grundpraktikum which is a great relief!! Thank God. =)

27th March is officially the day for earth hour. So turn off your lights for an hour today. Save our beloved planet (and also your own health). A sick world results to even more diseases and problems. 830pm local time, put all electric appliencies to slumber for a good rest ok?

I did my own love my earth project today which is selling bottles. Its been a while since I've sold my shelf-full collected plastic bottles. Every visitor to my room would always be attracted to my shelf full of plastic bottles. =/ Finally, after I-have-no-idea how many months, it's all cleared out (including glass bottles and hard plastic bottles). I secara rajin today cleaned my room, the total opposite of my past room situation (which is vary shameful). ngehh!

 soft plastic bottles

bottles with fund. This label gets scanned in the machine. No label, no fund.

reapings of what I've sowned =)

7,75 euros is much right? If it was converted to RM, it's almost RM40. Such a simple thing and we take it so lightly.

The same goes to plastic bags. Here we have to pay a few cents to buy a plastic bag from the supermarket (take note: we take the public transport) so when we have a lot of shopping to do, we have to carry big plastic bags with us. (bigs bags almost costs 1 euro, I take my Ikea bag).

Back home, they give out plactic bags like theres a plastic party going on. -_- ignorance. Than the plastic bags go all in the car boot and than in the kitchen. Would'nt it be more friendly if all groceries were put in the shopping cart than in the bonnet, maybe in just one big ikea bag or used boxes and not in many layers of plastic. Something so easy. Yet not practiced. Don't accept the plastic if it's not neccessary (ex: one item bought). Maybe I'll bring my own container to the makcik kuih next time when I buy kuih. Don't you realise how much plastic they give out?

Change our mentality towards earth. Love it, Save it.

Life Spent

Today had been a good day out to watch the world go by whilst breathing the fresh welcoming spring air. I sat on the bech in the middle of the town square to watch them all in smiles. Girls brushing their hair at the midst of giggling, boys being macho, kids learning to walk, parents still in love. I sat for a while to think. How fragile can this life really be.

My phone beeped with a text from home. Mum went over to see cousin at the hospital. We just got to know that she suffered from leukemia prolly about a month ago. Now she's already bold. Agrresive they call it. A few day ago, my facebook home was spammed with condlences to my late Science teacher, who also suffered from leukemia. Just around the end of last year, a senior of mine (in Germany) passed away due to blood cancer, a close friend lost her mother at the end of their family vacation. Last night after a chat with my group of friends, an update that a handfull of our Malaysian seniors in Germany suffered cancer. One at stage four, waiting for the call so to say.

I walked down the street and sat at another bench waiting to have ice cream with my friends. Again I thought as I saw people going by. They may drive that brand new Audi TT or have a Hummer Limousine as their wedding coach. All I saw at a 30 minute spent on the side bench. How sure are they of the future that it won't end tommorow. Is that all worth a life, so much that eternal life can be secured? I saw two young sisters walking ignorantly across the road. Their mother was far ahead. No cautin of the cars passing by. It could just be that tiny second. Maybe a microsecond if that term exists. It will end.

Than I realise how life is so similar to electronic goods. Back in the days when a nokia 3100 was the lord of modern handphones. It could last anything. As technology gets better, the life spend of handphones, computers get shorter, to one day be filled in by the latest technology of its kind. So goes to life. As intelligance get above the once impossible line, our lifespent too becomes shorter. With the polluted air and processed food, our body is turning into a time bomb. How sure are we what we do now could take us 10 years into the future? We never know what happens tommorrow. Are we even ready if our time comes tommorow? To say thank you to a person who has helped us, or just to say a simple I Love You to our parents and siblings. All this, we never know.

If only we reflect on what life really is and how short it clearly is. Only the Mighty one above is the only big boss we can turn to. That is what life sums into.

Comm Error

It's been a long day. Waking up at 545am is not usually my thing but I'm starting to get use to it. I was in the middle of slumber when I had to menahan kencing, 15 min till my alarm goes off. nerghh.. kacau.
This week is kind of annoying! My head doesn't even seem right on its track. I'm like lost in wonderland. My own wonderland... I rosakkan every task I was given today. At least a piece. Than I have to restart all over again. Wrong measurement, over cutting. Even failed at threading. The thing is that we weren't suppose to be doing Milling of Turning this week after doing if for the last four weeks! It's suppose to be assembly time. But no. =(

One thing I really am not fond of is people suddenly popping up to chat on face book. Like out of the blue and just type one stupid annoying word. Lawa or Sombong (Lawa is Proud in bahasa Swak). It's so stupid and practically shows no communication skill whatsoever. So you think I'll answer even when you come up to me like that isit? So obvious people like that were not thought manners. Like of a low mentality. Greetings are words like hello or how are you. Not some negetive word to start the long-time-no-chat conversation. Obviously to me it'll take a longer time before another conversation will even occur. So annoying right? I bet a lot of us have been through that.

Another thing is dem kids nowadays. Damn, they use much more foul language than thought in the school of bad kids. I do not find it flattering that kids use the F word in every single conversation. And when they envy you they'll go 'ohh I hate you!!' What is your problem hating around the globe as such? It's so not cool! And not forgetting freakingly annoying. I've seen an heard kids as young as 7 having conversations like that. If that was my kid, man he or she would be so unlucky to have me as a parent. Like in my time as in the 90's, we don't even dare to use foul language. Though I learn most of it since I was in primary 1 or 2. Yes, we know those dictionary of bad words but we did not think it was cool to say it out loud in our daily use. Times have really change and it's getting worse! Learn your manners please.

*annoyed and tired*

W. A. Mozart exp.

Another daytrip to Salzburg. I tagged along to test out my new D60 which I bought 2nd hand for 400€ from Peyot. I'm a very proud owner. Still a noob though.

 

Stupid freaking weather. It's hot and shining two minutes ago and when you wake up, it's all white again! Urghh!! I'm having sorethroats that could make my airpipe burst and almost made me passout while running. It was really cold and I was not even halfway through my run when I felt my chest was not even functioning for me to breathe. I forced my run at Platform 20 to 24. My breathing was really tight. I've never felt such pain. All I could do was cough. I doubt wether blood would come out. I could hardly breathe properly thus my tears squeezed my through my difficulty. I hate it when that happens. Born sick and weak with no stamina, that I had to grow up with. My monthly trips to the doctors. Put me in a group of active sportmen and that's what happens. I wish I was stronger. 

It was so cold. Temperatur ranges from -11 to -4°C. My last trip to Salzburg was also a bum. In 2008, it was raining with strong winds and my legs were pierced cold with soaking winter rainwater. And yesterday. A blizzard came upon us. For the past couple of days, strong winds was really common. With snow blowing at 180°. If those we a swarm of bees or hornets. It might be plague. The weather just can't make up it's mind. So stupid. It's suppose to be spring already!

Here's some pics from Salzburg. It was all about Mozart. 

Mozarts Birth House

Mozarts House

even had coffee in Mozarts Cafe

*no pics allowed in Museums.

 

 

 

We though we got cheated paying 9.90€ for the Nockel dish. We did'nt expect it to be fluffy and wiggly, soft like soap bubbles. I shoud have settled with Schachtorte. But well, another new thing.

Than there's this dog who was reluctant to move. It was so adorable!!! I was jumping and squeaking excitedly.

 

BC : tu anjing ke Garfield?? 

me : eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! so fluffy!!!

so typical of me. zzt.

We also went to the Palace grounds but all the pictures taken were white. Stupid snow. (again)

 

 

 

 

Ok. That's all about Salzburg. Wished the weather did not ruined it. Weather has been really bad. Confused I think.

Happy Birthday Mummy

3rd March 2010

Dear Mummy,

I want to wish you a happy 49th birthday. So fast ho? Never mind. A year to becoming rich with EPF. hahaa.. Than you can come over and have a nice holiday here.

I hope you like those lovely orchids I've sent. Hopefully they brighten your day. Please stay away from being stressed. It's very infectious to me who is very far away.

I have to sleep now mummy. I'm so tired. Tomorrow another day of work.
Take care mummy. I love you. God loves you.

MUAHHH.. nite nite.
Yayau.