it ends

it always feels that time goes by really super fast. and it is Fast! last Friday was my last day of lecture for my 1st semester in mechanical engineering and today we started our exam. and how it started with informatics! it wasn't so bad. started the exam with eating chocolates in the exam hall where all the professors seems so happy. he was the one that gave us all chocolates. so far so good i can say. 3 more papers to go. ending next Tuesday. then its winter break for more than a month. wohoo~ cant wait!!

i know i shouldn't be posting a post now. i'm trying to tell myself to go do my construction drawings and read up for Wednesday :P

so pray for abundant blessings to be upon me as i end my first semester in Germany!

to my Chinese peeps reading this, far from the west, im wishing you all a great new year. yeah!! strong cow... bring lots of luck. dont drink too much, dont gamble and loose tons! yam seng to the year of the cow or bull or anything in that category!!

*missing Chinese New Year with those back home*
hugss~

... wrapped up in a ball

have you felt sad, alone, hopeless...... gone,
how you'd wish the earth will open up
swallow you down and there's no one to say goodbye to you

there's always the time when you feel out of place
rejected, and put aside
even looking at yourself is meaningless

when the heart aches,
there's always no word to explain how it is
when even yourself don't understand why
looking, searching... happy moments don't seem alive
crying those drying tears don't help anymore
its just useless
as people say crying doesn't help
is it so?

the world is a big playground of judgment
you're judged in whatever you do
how your hair looks, how much you weigh
things you eat and how you eat

stereotyping is always the mind of humans
theres always something bad to say,
when nothing good seems to be found

and why are we still here?
the human population increases as the world gets colder
where did love go?
is it wondering out there lost in the evil
did it go to comfort those in the war

when i think of sad moments,
some are having the worst out there
why does language even differentiate the level of sadness we are going through
bad, worst, worst.... it all sums up to the same thing
pain within the soul that no one can understand

A lil something

I got this from Doreen today and it makes me realize how great things come in small packages!

The Facts of Life:

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. Without you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique, in your own way.

9. Someone that you don't know even exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.

13. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

It made my day, hope it made u smile

Welcome 2009

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2008 went well for most of us. Still ringing in my head was Pastors message for the year 2008. His question was "What is one word you would like your year 2008 to be?". For me it was MIRACLE. And that was what God gave me. Through trails and lots of errors, times i thought i would fall so low down the valley of death, it IS a MIRACLE that im still here. growing stronger instead. As time ticks ending 2008, all i can do is thank God for it because it will be one of the best years that God showed himself to me in every way i stepped. If its not for Him, firstly, i wont be in Europe. I would still be blaming my weak life for all ive failed. But you know what? God is real. And he answers each and every one of your prayers.

Learned lots of things, fell in and out of love, got hurt, hurt someone, forgive, repent, cried my hearts out, changed phones lots of times, lots my ic, lost my purse, went overseas, sold beancurd pudding, missed a flight, drove when i could hardly hear anything, changes room, changed living venues, played with hyraulics and pneumatics, smiled and blushed much, having the best in life... and much much more! thank you 2008!!

So here goes 2009. Another word i want to commit for this year is Excellence. If i cant do things, i know God will be there for me. Midnight was like any other normal midnight for me. A few students played fireworks ourside my window, threw firecrackers on my window which shocked me almost to death. They're legal here. Fireworks and crackers i mean. And seriously, they played it dangerously. i locked myself in my room, too afraid to go out since everyones drunk. and the temperature hits -8degrees. i watched the fireworks from my kitchen alone, talked on the phone, Skyped. well thats much for my new years celebration.

*my last meal for 2008 ~ sweet and sour prawns with a sunny side up*

We do not really have to have a new year to make things better. theres always today and tomorrow. new year is just another year to add another figure to your age but its a good way to refocus goals in life.

So cheers to a great 2009 full of Excellence!!